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so this summer was a bumpy ride. my best friend turned on everyone. and in the end she kind of got what she deserved, but now i wish i had her back. my best friend & favorite sister wont be able to see me graduate...she wont be able to see me turn 18, she wont be there for her childrens' birthdays: i miss her so much. Why did she have to mess up like thiss? she's locked up for who knows how long and the only way for me to speak to her is through glass and wiring and over a phone i can barely hear out of. i miss being able to tell her everything-- having her there for me when no one else would be-- and how she didn't judge me for anything i had done because, in some way, she had screwed up equally. She always understood me, but now there's no more. I started school believing that everyone would hate me because my sister had been charged with attept at killing a former favorite student from my school. though he was killed, and her truck was used, and she didn't do it, they believed she knew the murder was planned because it was her truck they used.

not once in my life did i believe i would be dealing with this at the age of 17. Surprisingly, school is absolutely awesome. This year is the most fun i've ever had. I've finally found my place, my friends, and the distinctions between who to trust and who not to trust. Though things have been rough, I still probably wouldn't change a thing about my life but to have my sister & best friend back.